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Friday 14 September 2012

Nap - attempt one

Oh how I was looking forward to my attempt at napping

I finished off my paperwork and eagerly drew the curtains at 2.15 , popped on the radio 4 afternoon play and set my alarm for 40 minutes later .
Five minutes in - phone rang . Botheration I meant to silence it . Ten minutes later just as I was drifting then mr Kay wandered upstairs and started wittering about going to the catering warehouse to look at carvery lamps and fridges
I was in bed at 2.30pm . why would he pick that time to think I would like to look at fridges and meat heating devices
Tried again - doorbell went and the courier was delivering my next open uni course material

Gave up

Went to look at fridges

Will try again next week sometime

Wednesday 12 September 2012

I am not good at blogging every day

Daily blogging is not my forte . Clearly

My mission of more sleep is proving tricky and somewhat unsuccessful as yet . My days just seem to be going quicker and quicker .
Alarm goes off and there is a whole day ahead of me . School run done , coffee in mug and then I start on my open uni . Before I know it then lunchtime is there and by the time I've dealt with business enquirys and quotes then somehow the time monkey has stolen the afternoon and it's 5pm and I'm tired . Tired until I get into bed and then brain perks up and I'm awake until 1am . Growl .

Anyway I have a plan

I am going to try and learn to nap .

Oh yes

A daytime nap would be super

I can unstuck today as I planned to try and give an attempt at a nap a go and got sidetracked and looked up and it was 4.30pm

Can't do it tomorrow as I'm in a meeting all afternoon so Friday will be the day . Nap city here I come - now to google "how to nap" and the second flaw in my plan is that I can't sleep in the daytime but I'm willing to learn



Friday 7 September 2012

Anxiety and gut instinct are similar beasts

I felt really weird yesterday in the early evening. Little one - who is not so little now at seven and I were sitting on the sofa and she seemed quiet. I asked her a few times if something was wrong and she said no but I kept getting a nagging feeling. After her shower I asked again and again she said no and I just had this icky feeling in my stomach .

Anyone who has panic or anxiety will be familiar with it - that feeling of impending doom over nothing and I got quite cross with myself over asking her so many times and projecting my insane feelings onto her

Ten minutes later she burst into tears and told me she had been "bad" and handed me a letter from her book bag from the school. She and another girl had been mean to a third girl and not letting her play at break time , the school phrase it as " not speaking with care " and she had been called in to see the head teacher and told off .

I popped in this morning and had a chat with the head teacher and got the details and had it confirmed that E had apologised and they were treating it as a one off

So there you go - sometimes the anxious feeling "over nothing " is not without basis

Doesn't that just confuse things!

Monday 3 September 2012

Sofa dwelling day

I took my first day off in ages today .
A total day off with the exception of the washing up and that was only gone because I ran out of cutlery so needs must when the devil drive

Our late afternoon drink to catch up with friends after work yesterday ended somehow morphed into us still bring put at 11.30pm and jigging to a Celtic punk fiddle band. We haven't been out in ages so I was glad we went in the end as I nearly bowed out as I was tired after the weekends work

I've spend the day with a hangover but not a nasty one , quite a pleasant lie on the sofa eating junk food and drinking earl grey tea by the bucket load and just feeling tired and a bit zoned out but chilled

No anxiety at all with the hangover though so in a weird way - result

I've now got a very full on two weeks with work so it's head down and less of the Irish jigging

Saturday 1 September 2012

Skinny beef lasagne

I made the hairy bikers skinny beef lasagne tonight which uses blanched leeks instead of pasta

Those naughty hairy bikers told me that the prep time was 30 minutes

They lied

I started at 9pm and finished it at 11pm

And the leeks were nasty

Bad boys