So far so good for 2012

What a change in a short time
I'm still bobbing along nicely

I've had the odd "eeeek moment " but on the whole things are calm and good now I've accepted its not a big deal

Once such eeeeeek moment was a couple of days ago when I decide to get some exercise and walk up to the shop about half a mile away. I should add I did this trip four days running with no eeeeeek factor but on the fourth day I set off and after a couple of minutes felt "odd". I think I was walking faster than usual so my heart beat faster than normal and I *think* that set off panic feelings. I was strolling along and became aware my heart was beating fast and that made me start thinking about my breathing  which of course then made me hyperventilate a bit and I then couldn't think of anything apart from the fact I couldn't catch a deep breath

I didn't need a deep breathe because I was breathing too fast ( hyperventilating ) but the fact I felt like I couldn't get a big breath made me panic and I had a little panic attack but still kept walking along and concentrated on breathing out for longer than in and it faded by the time I was on my way home
Eeeek but was okay in the end so no point in worrying about it

Funny what can trigger the memory of panic though and therefore set the brain into panic mode

Rhodiola Rosea , Diets and Sober January

I mentioned before I believe that I started taking some Arctic Root capsules ( a brand of rhodiola basically) in December and the anxiety plummented to minimal a couple of days afterwards. I'm still not sure if this is just a coincidence and I was just naturally not getting the panic or if it upped my serotonin or something .

I'm hoping it was a coincidence really ( just because I don't want my non anxious state to be the result of a tablet if you know what I mean )but ran out of Arctic Root yesterday and couldn't find anymore for love nor money so I've switched to plain old Rhodiola so it will be interesting to see if theres any difference

I mooted with having a whirl without them but there must be some part of me which is thinking this new found calm is not all natural as I decided I didn't want to stop taking them ... just incase its them and I end up all jittery and panicky again. I'll give it a couple of months then reassess

Diet still okay on the whole but I am having food envy as a sit and watch Mr Kay munching on all the left over xmas goodies. Stilton , maderia infused pate , crackers and honey roasted nuts were yesterdays torture for me. Pass the bananas lol

Sober January is no more. I cracked and had a couple yesterday. Thats a bit rubbish really but then again I don't really have the calories spare for alcohol for the next three months ish while I'm dieting away so maybe a little alcohol wasn't the end of the world

I expected to feel very remorseful I didn't achieve my Sober January goal but I didn't really so there you go. It did prove that alcohol reduces your will power though as I munched my way through a bag of crisps needlessly afterward so its not just the alcohol calories - its also the munchy calories afterwards so its on the not often list

The powers that be must have listened to me whinging about being bored as I've been rushed off my feet with work quotes this last week. Not quite what I had in mind to relieve the January boredom but hey ho

New Ki Fit 100 day weight loss challenge blog

I'm at an impasse with this blog as I started it after the year from hell with anxiety to note my progress and the anxiety is barely there for the last four weeks

I'll still be blogging here but I'll also be doing my weight loss 100 day challenge over here incase anyone fancies chivying me on

http://mskaysgettingkifit.blogspot.com/

Ki Fit

Mr Kay is away working again until the weekend so I have been keeping myself amused by throwing myself into my diet and fitness plan with gusto.

Dieting is dull and it takes so flipping long to lose weight that took a couple of weeks to gain .

However needs must when the trouser shrinking fairies strike so I've been exercise biking , zumba-ing ( in the privacy of my living room ) and walking and generally finding excuses to do any activity that gets the calories moving.I spent half an hour rearranging the shed today .. in January..in the UK .. its sending me crackers

My xmas present was a ki fit which is the UK equivalent of the bodybugg. The bodybugg is the black armband they all wear in the Biggest Loser TV show. It uses your body temperature and heart rate readings to figure out how many calories you are burning a day ( or it does it some how anyway - the science escapes me ). You then just eat 500 calories less than you are burning to lose a pound a week or make the deficit bigger to lose more

I'm suprised to learn I burn about 1800 calories a day just farting about doing nothing much and can get that up to 2200 calories with a bit of zing in my step ( okay a lot of zing)

Mr Kay thinks I'm insane as he is not over weight in the slightest and can't work out why I can't just eat less and move more without a £100 piece of kit on my arm.

I think most people would think that actually but I have high hopes

I'm an all or nothing girl and if I have a day when I'm munchy then I just throw the baby out with the bath water and just eat everything in sight.  I'm hoping the knowledge that if I want a day off then I can just eat what I burn and wont put on weight will help me do that .

I can hear you all sniggering at the back - stop it

Anyway I've been messing about with that while not drinking as its Sober January so life is dull but I feel virtuous